I'll Walk With You

It starts always so innocent 

It says it's a joke 

Then the joke becomes a rumor 

The rumor says it's true 

Then the lie starts growing 

And growing 

The lie becomes a fact 

Then all the hurtful words start to pour on you

It's raining words 

That pierce you

As the words come forward 

Its hand grabs your throat tightly 

Then stabs your lungs

You're almost out of air 

Why don't I just give up? you say

But somewhere inside you

Says no, you're worth it 

You're loved 

You're accepted 

Look around you 

You are worth it

You will get through this

Take my hand 

I'll walk with you 

My Thoughts

My mind is paralyzed 

By the thoughts 

Of how I'm not worth the life I breathe

As tears paint my face 

Shaking my head back and forth

To get a chance to think of something else

I'm blinded by self doubt

As I tremble forward 

Trying to move on

I fall down to my bruised knees 

I shriek until I can't anymore

It seems that I care more about my thoughts

Than myself 

As the sun burns my skin

The flowers die in my hand

My bone are heavy from the pain

I can't move anymore

God!

Help me!

With a small voice says you are worth more than heaven's treasures

My chains are broken 

Sun doesn't sting 

And the burden on my heart is gone 

Write Love on Her

She is confused

Overwhelmed 

Sad

She thinks she is ugly 

He thinks she is worth more 

She wants to end her life 

When he can't live without her

She cries until there are no more tears 

He holds her as long as he can 

She loves him

Because he writes love on her 

Everyday in the mirror 

She will see his love on her 

She is happy 

Light into Dark

Good-bye Sun

For I won't see you again 

Good-bye light blue sky 

I'm not coming back

Moon will be my light now 

The navy blue sky, my background 

The flowers that once were colorful

Are brown, dry, and wilted away

The trees that once were filled with fruit and green leaves

Now are bare and lifeless

Lifeless

That is what I feel

I am an angel that turned into a demon 

I don't recognize this forest

I don't recognize myself

I Will Wait

Wait, and he shall come

My eyes haven't see 

Not my mind had imagined 

One detail of him

For love is not a treasure to be found 

It simply will bloom when the time comes

My life is Yours, Oh God!

And his shall be too

My love will come from You

For my sinful love can not satisfy his heart

There is no two in a partnership 

But three

For when I have waited 

And when he comes

We shall praise You

And become one in Your presence 

But for now, I shall wait 

For this is not my life 

This body is not mine 

And You have blessed me with it

I shall be impatient 

I know I will 

Lord, give me the strength to wait

For him

Because I know he is waiting for me 

I will be faithful to him

And I will wait 

For him

Good Kind of Bad

No one knows my story
Only parts of it
God?
Can you hear me?
Well, I have one question for you
Where were You?

Where were You?
Ugly and fat
They showed a mirror of myself
Saying I wasn't worth it

Where were You?
When my love started to describe me as a toy
That he could play with when whenever he wanted to
No permission needed to him

Where were You?
When I shrieked at the top of my lungs
In overwhelm of the pain
When I past my limit

Where were You?
When I had to leave my home and friends
I cried for days an days
Yet no response

Where were You?
When all the ones I trusted
Were soon lost
And I was alone

Where were You?
Tears became blood

Blood painted my arms
It helped me in a way
Because sometimes you need the bad
To know what was good.

This is a Story

This is a story
About everything and everyone
We are all writing our stories
Each day we continue our story
Because it is our decision
To write what happens next

This is a story
Writing about all the hurt and betrayal
The tears that fall
The crisis that rises
Wondering if there will be an ending
To all this pain

This is a story
Each chapter is a new beginning
A new change
Each book is a person
Because
We are all stories in the end